Coerced into Regret

I'm female, I'be been struggling with my attraction to preteen girls & that kind of porn too since my mid teens, so you are NOT alone with this !!!! 

I just know that somewhere out there there must be screen captures of me showing my vagina on cam back when MSN had cam to cam chats and I would sneak into that site, while my mom was out of the house, specifically to masturbate with other kids when I was almost twelve. I would do it on cam with both Girls and guys, I was terrible. It wasn't until I was like almost twenty that I found out about apps to do screen shot and I was OMFG NO !!!
Utterly erotic but absolutely stupid thing you do as a kid going through puberty without thinking of the consequences of it in the years that follow. That's what I get for chasing orgasms as a preteen.  

My little sister and I engaged in sex a bunch of times when we managed to be alone together in the house. They were all just like quickies when I was like thirteen and she had just turned ten. Our parents never found out and I know I was super lucky that she never told on me and I got away with it but as an adult I really feel guilty about down deep inside that I used my sis for sex while she couldn't get pregnant and I knew it. She and I do not talk about it and nobody in our families or our spouses know how sexually involved we got with each other. It's hard to live with.

anonymous wrote: I'm female, I'be been struggling with my attraction to preteen girls & that kind of porn too since my mid teens, so you are NOT alone with this !!!! 

I think it's just as common with females as it is with males, it's just that males are far more on the "radar" than females. So I also struggle with my urges too, so you are not alone either.

This older guy in my building got me to visit his apartment and showed me hardcore sex magazines when I was like around twelve. I got hard. He talked me into jerking off to the pictures in those magazines while he took polaroid pictures of me and I was stupid and horny enough to do it. I got completely bottomless and jerked. I checked every single picture to make sure my face was not showing like he said he was going to make sure it didn't show my face. He ran out of film and sucked me off all the way. I never went back to his apartment and avoided him but I did jerk off plenty of times thinking back to the pictures in the magazine of kids having sex with each other.  

So I was coerced into posing nude for polaroid pictures when I was nine a bunch of times by an uncle and letting my early teen boy cousin do sex to me. I was too young to get pregnant and they knew it.
I've hated them both ever since. My uncle died and my cousin is fighting cancer. 
I am hoping the cancer wins.