High stakes bet. I lost.

Last weekend I made a mistake. A firing offense. I slept with a client. First time, it was obvious to him that I was inexperienced. He called me a 'girl', he walked me through what he was going to do with me, step by step. It was uncomfortable, the more steps he took, the more uncomfortable. Knowing doesn't help, it makes it worse. When he got to the 'act' he held off until I got so nervous I thought I was going to pee myself. Then, wham, in to the hilt. He left his bodily fluids in me. The next to last step. Holding me still not being able to move, escape, was the last step. 

My age, 37. My profession, attorney. The man, 52. Married, with children. Executive in the client company. Objective, rob me of my guarded virginity. I lost a bet I thought I had covered.